Still Alive:

Hi everyone! I know I haven't been around lately. My health has been giving me so many problems. I did have a Dr's appointment last week, but the night before I was standing on my crutches and I lost my balance, my knee shifted outward and popped. This is what happened back in March that caused me to break my ankle. So I know now for sure that in January when I tore the ligaments on the outside of my knee I tore them completely and will have to have surgery because there is nothing holding my knee or stopping it from shifting to the outside.

I'm going to see if my Dr. will just admit me to the Hospital where a orthopedic surgeon will come see me and schedule the surgery because I can barely get to the bathroom and back let alone try and get myself to a orthopedic DR right now. So any and all prayers are very needed right now. I'm just mentally and physically exhausted and scared. I tried taking a shower last night and ended up throwing my guts up from the pain and anxiety of all this.

I've been stuck in bed since January and I'm over this. I don't want to spend Christmas in bed. I can;t stand laying in this bed another month. I'm getting weaker and weaker. My leg was shaking so bad last night when I got back to the bed from my shower that Sean could barely get my ace bandage wraps off me.

I have a constant cough that won't go away from fluid building up in my lungs because I've been in bed so long. I have sever edema and swelling in my feet, legs, belly and hands. I had to take my wedding ring off because it was cutting into my fingers from the swelling even. I got to do something because I'm getting worse not better. Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts.

Love Ashlie